Well, another few weeks have gone by since I last wrote here. And boy, it seems like things are changing and moving forward real quick. But it’s all good and I don’t regret anything.
I’m dating now. That’s right. ME and JULIE are DATING. WHAT THE FFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCK. HAHA.
Seriously, I don’t even know if it’s hit me yet. What we have right now is all I ever wanted. She’s all that I ever dreamed of. When I was lonely, it was someone like her that I longed to have in my life. And now look where we’ve gone. We’re officially dating (as of 9/4/17). We’re holding hands, we’ve been to Santa Monica, we’ve even gone to freaking DISNEYLAND. It might seem like we’re going too fast but honestly, I think we’re okay. She’s the type to move pretty fast emotionally and even physically, from her last relationships. And to be honest, I am that kind of person too. It’s just pretty hard to figure out if we actually are moving too fast or if this is just the only way we can happen.
Recently though, I’ve been pretty up and down. She got pretty guilty when her ex texted her and she kept the conversation going. She felt really bad and was really sorry and she told me she has no feelings for him anymore. I don’t know if that’s true but I told her I trust her word and that’s all that matters. The thing is, the closer I get to her and the more I start to like, I’m getting more and more afraid of losing her. Just thinking about not having her and her leaving after this semester is making me pretty sad. I don’t know what’s going to happen but for now, I’m just gonna take it day by day. I really like her and I really want us to work out.
Jules, let’s do this.